Saturday, August 23, 2008
yoyoyo~ time to blog again jus becos I'm literally bored now. jus watched a match of table tennis men's final for Bejing Olympics. lol~ it was China VS China. I guess China really aim to be the top in this year's Olympics ba~ anyways, nth much to talk abt that match cos its still China's win in anyway. lol~
FYP has started on the 2nd phase already. but sad enough, the results of our experiments were all negatives so couldn't really say it was a gd start. though we have already planned out what to do next with nadjy, still had to pray and hope for better results. next week will be a pretty short week cos we have monday off due to TSO Bonding which the lab will be closed. and a project writing seminar to attend on tues which actually take half of the day already. so its a pretty short week still in any case. hahahas~ well well.. its really pretty bored since my hobbies are all locked out. one thing abt that phrase I said earlier is that S'pore is starting to get real real real real boring. why? cos its too damn small. though its been some time since I've been sentosa and which I'm going to on Monday to jus wash away all the troubles and stress frm FYP and etc. still I think its jus boring to not being able to go anywhere interesting ard this small tropical island.
well.. its jus life here in S'pore. although I don't really like the idea of migrating overseas jus becos of this. hahahas~ and why did I touch into the topic of overseas? no reason, jus came and it like. well well.. I'm starting to crap here in my post. I guess its natural when I'm like so 'hard working' updating my blog and wanted to say some stuffs but due to its length, crap start filling up to make it longer, like this.
and besides, recently I've thinking abt the past ever since ytd when I told nadjmi abt my past stuffs of getting together with charmaine and also a bit abt jocelyn and etc. this was when I started thinking abt my own past, what I have done and what mistake I made. thinking back really makes me feel like a really really old man. though I'm 20 this year and I can't turn back time. but really, I realised a lot of stuffs I did and it was kinda a fun and also painful experience back then. life has always been ups and downs for everyone here. well I'm sure I did a lot pretty stupid stuffs back then and now when I think back, it was jus memories down and I'm sure the experience helps a lot. hahahas~ although I don't have a lot of love memories in my past but I'm sure each and everyone of it, I didn't regret ever liking someone. =)
well well, past is always a past, and the future is something there cannot be grasp by us either. therefore present is where we always will make a difference in it. what we do in the present will only affect the future and no changes to the past. ytd, today and tml. what u have done, has already been ytd; what u can do, u can only do it today; what u can't do, u can only achieve it tml. =)
Love confessions. this is one thing that shld nvr ever wait for tml. even if ur afraid of rejection, one shld let their feelings known to the other. in this world, the scariest thing is not abt failures, but regrets. the feeling of not being abt to do it, the feeling of regret is the most painful thing than a rejection can cause. those who wait for tml are idiots. those who think tml forever exsists are idiots. so wait no longer, do ur confession now! (sounds like some sort of catch phrase.. -.-)
and.... I guess thats it ba. hahahas~ quite a bit of rubbish in this post leh. but nvm~! enjoy reading... well if u reached this sentence u finished! =x
no Innocence, just Me
9:52 PM
Monday, August 18, 2008
well, I was soooooo bored, I have changed the starting song. =) and here it is~ enjoy!
Song: Wait for You
Artist: Elliot Yamin
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
and I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they, keep running down my face
Why did you turn away
Interlude:
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be
Chorus:
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
Been a long time since you called me (How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy (Crazy)
How can you walk away (When)
Everything stays the same (The Same)
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying
Baby why can't we just, just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough
Chorus:
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
Interlude:
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie
What you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do
Chorus:
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
I'll be waiting
no Innocence, just Me
11:45 PM
hello to all peeps out there!!! I'm here to update due to....... boredom!! =x
well, thats exactly what I'm saying for real. due to boredom, which means the mangas I'm currently reading hasn't release another/few chapters, the anime that I'm currently watching are not released yet either, and I'm jus plain bored doing nth else.
there goes for my rantings here and there la~ anyways, pretty much bored frm last week onwards. did nth much with lab work last week, so this week is gonna be a heavy load to do man~ but its alright, my partner, nadjy and I decided we shld really start on our stuffs. been dragging it for like 1-2 weeks already. lol~ and to end off the week was our OIAP Presentation to fellow OIAP students~ although we heard frm Dr Zaman that the OIAP briefing to the year 2s was already done without our slides to show them, I didnt know to think of it as gd or bad. but one thing is for sure, after the selection, we are gonna get some calls (I think..) frm those going to where we have been to. hahahs~ anyways, the presentation actually were awarded marks and... we didnt knew that. =/ anyways, our slides were done one day before the presentation and were pieced together earlier on that day. well all went well except the whole OIAP Presentation cld not finish on time. so there will be another one tml for the regional countries one. hahahas~
other than that, spent the weekend rotting at home as usual. wanted to get some research done but what stopped me was charmaine, anime, manga, anime, j-drama, anime, and more other distracting stuffs. (P.S. dear, u were only mentioned once. u shld be happy right..? u werent distracting me frm work, which is what u wldnt want.... right?) and so thats how my weekend swept past with dust everywhere.... and then again, I feel that my player in my blog is causing a lot of distress....? well cos if anyone's speaker was fully blasted and went to my blog, it'll be damn distress....? well, cos its like making a lot of electric guitar sounds which kinds of sounds damn cool but at the same time irritating....? well, whichever it is in any actual case presented. so I think, I seriously think I shld change the starting song of my blog. there then it will not cause any distress....? although no one mentioned anything abt it. I got irritated... =/
btw, that's all I guess for now. will be updating pretty frequently these days since I can foresee my boring days. well, its the exam week and everyone's having exams except for a bunch of us! =x well gd luck to all ur papers! holidays are jus after ur last paper so do enjoy the exams as well! =x cya peeps ard~
no Innocence, just Me
11:13 PM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Song: God Knows...
Artist: Aya Hirano
English TranslationI run past others with a parched heart.
Sorry, I can't do anything.
You won't even let me
Share our pain together.
To live on without tarnish,
I face your back and head out without looking back
On the lonely rail
I will follow you.
No matter how agonizing the world is,
You will shine even in it's darkest corners.
Cross over the end of the future,
My weakness will not shatter my spirit.
My way is overlapping with yours.
For the two of us, God bless...
This warming affection that reaches me,
It melts my reality and roams my heart.
I don't need a reason for wanting to meet you,
Just my overflowing feelings, Lovin' you
For now, let's paint a beautiful dream
And chase after
For your lonely heart
Stop it, it's not like you to lie.
Look at my eyes and let's talk about our future.
I am prepared,
Even if the future is bleak,
I might be able to change destiny if I become stronger.
But for my wish to come true,
Everything is God knows...
You are here, I am here.
Everyone else has disappeared.
While we paint the beauty of this fleeting dream,
We trace out the lines of our scars.
That's why I will follow you.
No matter how agonizing the world is,
You will shine even in it's darkest corners.
Cross over the end of the future,
My weakness will not shatter my spirit.
My way is overlapping with yours.
For the two of us, God bless...
Romanji TranslationKawaita kokoro de kakenukeru
Gomen ne nani mo dekinakute
Itami wo wakachiau koto sae
Anata wa yurushite kurenai
Muku ni ikiru tame ni furimukazu
Senaka mukete satteshimau
On the lonely rail
Watashi tsuiteiku yo
Donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae
Kitto anata wa kagayaite
Koeru mirai no hate
Yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasarenu you ni
My way kasanaru yo
Ima futari ni God bless...
Todokete atsuku naru omoi wa
Genjitsu tokashite samayou
Aitai kimochi ni riyuu wa nai
Anata e afuredasu Lovin' you
Semete utsukushii yume dake wo
Egakinagara oikakeyou
For your lonely heart
Yamete uso wa anata rashikunai yo
Me wo mite kore kara no koto wo hanasou
Watashi kakugo shiteru
Kurai mirai datte
Tsuyoku natte unmei kaerareru kamo ne
My wish kanaetai noni
Subete wa God knows...
Anata ga ite watashi ga ite
Hoka no hito wa kieteshimatta
Awai yume no utsukushisa wo egakinagara
Kizuato nazoru
Dakara watashi tsuiteiku yo
Donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae
Kitto anata wa kagayaite
Koeru mirai no hate
Yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasarenu you ni
My way kasanaru yo
Ima futari ni God bless...
I feel this song is pretty gd as well as the music in it~ hahahas~ enjoy ya peeps~ and do listen to the following song after that, its pretty nice =) ciaos~
no Innocence, just Me
11:33 PM
Friday, August 08, 2008
know what?! its the 08/08/08 on a friday!! what auspicious number is it for 4D isn't it?! well well.... however my reason for this post isn't abt 4D for this special number! 08 is indeed a special number becos this marks the 22 months anniversary for me and my very beloved charmaine dear!! =D well well.. I had in mind that maybe after 2 years together, which in coming in Oct this year, I wanna convert the monthly anniversary to our yearly anniversary!!! yes yes of cos our monthly special get together every 8th of every month will still go on. but, I wld definately love the yearly anniversary becos its gonna be even more special than each month!
however, on the sad part of this day, my beloved one is in Australia doing her degree while I'm still pathetically doing ym Diploma here~! and not to mention I still gotta serve army for another 2 years!! so I'll be a lot later than dear upon getting honors~ indeed a pretty sad thing there for me! =( but then again, I don't mind getting later than dear la~ hahahas~ however, I just wish to be able to marry dear and have kids before age 30 ba~ well, both of us study in the same field so having babies after age 30 have higher risk for abnormalities la~ and also have to look at our financial conditions also la~ hahahas~ many many things to worry abt!
some of u may think its a lil too early for all these but jus to let u all know, time passes really fast, like the speed of light! u'll nvr know when that very important day ur waiting for ur whole life will ever come! nth comes to u if u wait, only u will reach them if u take the effort to~ although there is a saying of gd things come to those who wait, it does not work for every single thing in life. which things? I donno them myself. however, everyone of us will definately have different things or ppl that we will wait no matter what. as for me, I'm waiting for the very day where dear graduate and where our relationship is official and approved by her parents! okay, some of u may not know what I meant, but some do anyways. so I won't bother myself to explain. hahahs~ can come ask me if ur that interested~ =p
and it seems like I'm drifting away frm what I intend to post for. HAPPY 1YEAR 10MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO MY BELOVEDXUNLIMITED CHARMAINE DEAR~! XD 2 more months to our 2 years of relationship! and I'm definately looking forward to that very day! heheheh~ but dear u have to work hard for ur studies over there! don't disappoint any of us here~ I'm sure u will do ur best and graduate like how u want to! =) as for me flying over to ur graduation day, I'll do my best to achieve that! =) but no promises ya~ =x
no Innocence, just Me
11:59 PM
