Saturday, October 27, 2007
Looking back at the days,
the times we were just accquitances,
to what we are now;
Couples.
Through the moments we've been,
happy or sad,
sweet or bitter;
Those are memories that cannot be replaced.
You had no choice to choose from,
thats when you have to leave me.
My heart was in pieces;
Painful and unbearable.
The times we met;
when you returned and when I went over;
They are so precious and heartwarming.
When its time for you to return,
even if its only for a short while,
I will be more than contented to have you by my side again;
I want your warmth, your closeness, your lips.
Even when I stopped myself from missing you in the days,
everything will just surface at night;
In my dreams I cry, I cried for you.
Nothing in this world could ever replace you.
Becuase there is only one you,
the one I put my heart with,
the one that I showered all of my love with,
the one that would only smile for me
and make me smile.
no Innocence, just Me
10:58 PM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
back to blog once again since i'm kinda free at the moment.
well, things have been going well.. so far so gd for studies. the only thing that i'm being bothered right now is the OIAP.
ever since ytd that i got the ans to the qns my father asked to ask, i wonder if he'll let me go overseas for IAP. well, of cos, the country i really really wanna go wld be aus of cos, since its on the list. one thing that came straight to my mind of cos is dear la. i'm being honest kies. besides that, wld the the University of Queensland. seriously, the Uni of QLD is really really fantastic! no kidding~ i once read the booklet for Uni of QLD, in their science department, they had the coolest courses like nanotechnology, quantam physics(i think), forensic science, etc.
back to the topic. heheh~ though like what Dr. Zaman told me abt the labs there are no diff frm what we have here in sg, still i wanna go over to experience something diff. yea, the labs may be similar, but on another country doing ur IAP is diff. its something like studying in sg and studying overseas, its also kinda diff. one wld be the enviorment, second independence(not like i'm not independent in sg, but in overseas is a totally diff thing), thirdly, of cos wld be my precious dear~, fourthly, cultural exchange, last but not least, the real meaning of working in a lab. hahahas~ i know the last one is kinda crappy la, but whatever~ the only i'm concern is the costs(but my dad told me no need worry? o.O) and most worried wld be getting shortlisted as well as getting to go AUS for IAP... something to declare, i'm not rich at all! T_T
putting OIAP aside, CCTA has finally started on its "project" le. well, its a long proccess to being with. each grp are to put in info according to the topics they are given to do into their own WIKIS on MEL; that will be abt 2 weeks. next 3 weeks will be comments by our own and other classes ppl lor. last week wld be our presentation on the overall. wow~ pretty easy as it seems aint it? but i can tell it requires effort..... oh wells, fate of year 2s are to start getting prepare for ur FYP in year 3. hahahas~ IMMUNO is also gonna start on project pretty soon too. topics will be released next week, and grps are formed by balloting? like a bit weird. who wld wanna form project grps by voting?? freakish. anyways, off that, immuno project shld be quite interesting. hahas~
now i'm sure MMB will have project also. but the only thing is, does BIF and DBG have too? i hope NOT man~ hahahas~ but anyways, today french lesson was very very funny. hahas~ then at the end was oral assessment. man i'm sure i didnt do well cos my lec speak real fast, then my mind blank though the words are running through my mind. haiz~ gotta work hard for the next lesson already. lalalas~
oh wells, guess thats abt it ba. tml gonna have my first MMB prac. wonder is it similar to MOBIO prac? hahahas~ oh wells~ tml gonna see Danielle Natasha Ang, donald's, nadjmi's and my immuno mouse for prac. hahahs~ its my duty u know, cos its tml. lol~ tatas~
no Innocence, just Me
7:48 PM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
hahas~ been busy ever since sch started! works just came dashing in! (okies, not that much la~ but still its quite a no.)
having quizzes for prac tml, as well revision for the lec ntoes for immuno. but lets just say tml is immuno day! cos i start sch at 2pm, 4hrs straight, 1hr lec and 3hrs prac, all immuno! hahahas~ just finish reading up some parts of the prac for the quiz. not so bad actually, starting to understand why immuno is feared by ppl. but for now, its still managable la~ as for mmb also, the other most feared module in our sem, i'm not sure abt that yet. hahahas~
yes, recently been watching anime. there is this anime which is freakish, scary and bloody, physchological and stuffs. yea, the anime name is Higurashi no Naku Koro ni. well thats the first season, they have a second season which is still on airing over at jap. well, i wont reccommend faint-hearted ppl to watch this, cos its really brain exhausting. trust me, first 16 episodes will send u in a whillpool of confusion. and besides that, its really scary at some point that u can feel the tension in the anime. rather say tension, more likely to be the fear within the anime. its freakish really. hahas~ shld go watch it on crunchyroll ppl, but those who have weak heart, pls dont! =)
for sat, went for the charity event thingy. all we had to do was to take care of the children there. the event is actually pretty boring i must say. hahahs~ although really didnt do much over there, hope the children had fun that day ba~ then i went for the Great Eastern Women's Marathon this morning to be a road marshall. seriously, first time being a road marshall la~ but the huge crowd of running women, as well as girls, really stunned me! hahahas~ but was mostly slacking cos really, its just to stand at the road there, ans some funny questions posted by the runners when they got problem and just direct them. lol~ and we get a free shirt~ maybe i shld go for more of this marathon thingy as marshalls, for the shirt! lol~
well, i guess thats abt it ba! will update next time when there is something better! tatas~
no Innocence, just Me
11:24 PM
Monday, October 15, 2007
well, today's first day of sch! lol~ long queue at the emart at LSCT there to get our prac manuals~ and was late for our first tutorial in the morning!
MMB tutorial, Dr Sara Zaman, well, friendly as usual, mother of us children too. =/ hahas~ well, bad news is that our tutorial has been changed to FRI EVEN WEEKS!! meaning my 4hrs straight break on EVEN WEEKS IS GONE!!!! gd news? ODD WEEKS no need so early go sch. =/
and may i say, BIF, BioInfo, is super duper dry and boring! rwar! cos the lec speaks has a very strong accent plus fast speed! most of the things she say i catch no ball at all. almost fall asleep for the last few mins. thanks god! only odd weeks lec then see her, even week prac then see her. if every week, i dont think i can make it man.
then immuno was the best la! especially prac, the mice are so cute!! lol~ its really a waste to "torture" them during our experiments. haiz~ and nadjy got a very drama queen mouse today! lol~ he tried scrubbing the mouse, to immoblized it, the mouse squeak lots man! and nadjy freaked out! lol~ failing a bit to scrub. as for me, i just had the mice in my palms. well, the mice were so scared of us, it started to crap and pee when we pick them up. lol~ crap wasnt bad, pee smells bad. hahas~ but they are so cute! next time shall take a pic of it and post it on blog. hahahs~
well, then stayed back a bit for GLs dancing rehersal. wasnt so bad but cld put in a lot more effort in practising. and had dinner at KAP! woots~ wanted to cab home de, but i went out and saw my sis and her fren in a car! woots! free ride! wahahaha~! and eddy got a free ride too~ lucky him~ hahas~
well, thats abt my first sch day for today ba! haha~ it wasnt so bad afterall! just that, had to wait till midnight for MMB lec notes to come out. =/
no Innocence, just Me
11:15 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
hai hai~ time for some updating to do~~~!
well its just a short one only la. sch is re-opening tml! i dont know if i shld feel happy or sad abt it~ happy wld be the end of no-life at home. sad thing is to study hard yet again. and this sem is really harder then the last one. haiz~
counting down to 54 days till bdear comes back to sg!!! man! its better than having the no. 365 days right? lol!! well, i'm gonna face that no. in the near future anyways. =/
something new to talk abt though! i changed my psp to psp slim! wahahha~ and the difference is really significant, especially the weight. hahaa~ there are 5 colours~ piano black, dont know what white, dont know what silver, felicia blue, lavander purple and dont know what pink. lol! i got the felicia blue one~ cos its nice! the lavander purple is also not bad! but a bit gayish if i were to hold it. hahahas~
and yes, my psp can play dwled games! wahahaha~! but for only the very best and nice games, like Crisis Core FF7, i will buy them instead of dwling them. lol~
well, i guess thats abt it ba~ tml start got prac liao. sianz~ end at 6pm somemore, how to reach early for the charity event training ne!! T_T
no Innocence, just Me
11:09 PM
Monday, October 08, 2007
HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MY BELOVED DEAR!!!
yes yes yes! the moment the 2 of us have been waiting for! its our 1 year anniversary of being together!!! and i'm really glad that this day has finally arrived!
and oh yea, though we are pretty far apart, we still made some things for each other! while i had the free time, i did a video for my beloved dear and she did a ppt(cos time constraint la)~ hahahs~ but then again, the video is only 1 part of my gift for her! there's still a bit more to give but have to wait till she returns! lalals~
1 year of getting together is not easy, especially for us, who were apart for the the other half a year! yes~ it wasnt easy, though we visited each other, talk to each other online, it really wasnt easy to maintain such a long distance relationship. a lot of ppl had told me that a long distance relationship will not last. yes, most of the time this sentence is true. but for me, i beg to differ. it really takes a lot of effort to maintain such a relationship. but if the truth of ur relationship is that, u really really love her so deeply, so madly, and vice versa, i see no meaning why we cant maintain a long distance relationship.
yes, fears and concerns, doubts and imagination, these are the ones that make us really uneasy. its true how fearful these emotions can be, it can devour one's mind and let that person go crazy. i've tried it once, it almost had me. if dear wasnt there for me, telling me many things, i think i wld've been a gone case. some of u may think its exaggerating. but its not, for my case.
not many ppl have such "bliss" to be seperated frm ur loved ones(of cos besides NS for guys, its just merely 2 years while i had to bear for 4 years =/) the feeling of not having ur loved one beside or even near u, not even in the same land that we are stepping. its such a lonely feeling, something that wld make u go depress, till u feel like jumping off the building. missing is also a kind of suicidal feeling. the more u miss, the more miserable u will be, even more u will be depress cos ur loved one aint here. but of cos, i have a strong mind, as well as a heart. i wont be so depress of cos, though still a lil depressed.
more over, dear and i have been through so many things, mostly are the bad ones =/ but then again, we still did have many many wonderful times together. and i will always rmb all of it~ to my beloved dear again~
HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!! ALL THE TIMES WE'VE BEEN THROUGH; GOOD OR BAD, WE WITHSTOOD IT ALL! LOVE BABY DEAR LOTS LOTS DEEP DEEP FOREVER! UR FOREVER MY ONLY BABY, MY ONLY DEAR~
no Innocence, just Me
12:00 AM
