Sunday, June 17, 2007
cant believe it. its already 2am and i have yet to sleep. thought wld be able to exhaust myself by watching anime. was watching sumomomo momomo. a very funny anime. one shot watched 16 epi. well, since i cldnt cont it, then i went to search for themes for my hp. been some time since i've done that. but it was over in a pretty short while. manage to find some nice ones but have yet to see how it looks like on my phone.
was browsing through photos of me n dear on my phone just now. its not all though, d rest are in my lappy. i really miss dear so much. cldnt talk to her ytd.... n now listening to some music which actually brings in emotion, yea yet again inside me. i miss dear so much! i love her so deep.... even gui gui(d one on my hp) misses his gf(d one dear has) a lot too! n u may think i'm crazy but i actually talked to gui gui on fri night, and i think later i will talk to it. yea, go ahead and think i'm crazy, i dont mind. i'm in a state where i guess no one, seriously no one can do anything abt it. maybe for dear, depending on me. i'm such a weird person, not freak but just weird.
think i'm having too much emotion in me. i cldnt sleep, feel tired but my eyes just wont rest. my body functions like hyper, my brain still thinking many stuffs, cant be stopped. thinking abt 6 months++ then dear will be back. starting to tear yet again. well, i guess i'm just seriously, one who is emotional vulnerable. u know, there are ppl who are like me, have their gfs overseas studying while they remain in sg n vice versa. i guess i'm not alone in this situation, neither is dear. its just that my heart is feeling so lonely. without dear here, my heart starts to wander, it starts to look for dear, it starts to miss dear, it just starts to hurt so badly.
I love you just as you are. (I just love dear as who u are)
Love which connects 2 persons. (I can feel ur emotions, even ur far away)
You've taught me the true meaning of love. (Yes, u did.)
Some love lasts a lifetime, true love lasts forever. (Ours will last forever)
I love every little thing about you. (Its true)
I always give you all my love. (I'm always giving my love to u, only)
You're the only one for me. (No one can replace u, dear)
I love you no matter what happens. (And that is true)
Love is the emblem of eternity. (I'm sure it is)
I wanna be with you forever. (That is my wish)
The only person in the world who I was born to love forever. (Its u, dear)
A miracle to meet you. (Yes, it is)
Love makes miracles. (Surely it does, for me)
Your smile is the sun. (Always will be to me.)
When I am with you, the world looks wonderful. (With u, my world is filled with colours of love)
Love is the key to open the gate of happiness. (I'm sure ur d key to my happiness)
The kiss is a phenomenon that happens to lovers at the precious moment of coming so much. (And I really miss that so much)
Only because you're here. (My life is perfect)
We'll be happy together. (I'm happy to have u as my dear)
With you forever. (Love dear forever)
When I think of you, clouds in my heart disappears. (Only u can make me feel better)
It's destiny that we met each other. (Fate also plays a part)
although i didnt think of all d sentences abv, d rest in d brackets are my real thoughts frm deep down in my heart. Love is the emblem of eternity, i really love this sentence. maybe part of this post is dedicated to my beloved dear, Chew Sze Min Charmaine. to my dear: "i love u like i always do. i miss ur smile, ur voice, ur laughter; i just miss everything lil thing abt u. my tears are for u, my love is for u, u are everything to me. i just cant stop loving u each day even if ur not here. only u can make me smile, make me laugh; its just u who makes everything that is just me. i promise i'll be right here waiting for ur return, no matter what. i'll always be waiting for u, no matter how long it takes. cos to me, ur my everything, ur my life, ur my other half. i love u, forever."
no Innocence, just Me
2:33 AM
