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Friday, June 29, 2007

alrighties~ time to update for some stuffs le ba!!

first off, lets start on with monday! got back MBC n STATS paper!!! MBC is sad cos only got 69/100, i'm so happy for STATS cos got 90/100! but stupid few careless mistakes!! rwar~! after sch nth much happen la~ just as usual except that at d end of sch, we went to promote GL Recruitment thingy~

on tues~! normal morning INAC prac and ended early! wahahaha~ then it was TELEMATCH! had loads of fun man! i think our station rocks de most!! water, water bombs n crazy freshies!! wahahaha~ love the TELEMATCH a lot. though in the end we went to scrub d road near ex-canteen 5! wahahaha~ had so much fun even washing d road. why are we washing d road? cos of flour-mix-in-water and dont what happened to that area! it was hard work but all of us did a great job! partly thanks to GATSBY!!! I~~~~~~ CAN GIVE U GATSBY~~~

as for weds, 6 hrs of lec + prac is cancelled cos Dr Choy is down with chicken pox! hope he will be fine since he is an adult n he's down with chicken pox. poor dude~ then met up earlier to do up our project stuffs, especially for INAC. yep~ then had our MBC lecture. as usual all of us went home after that. boring wed~

thurs! met up with donald earlier to go to this HLM class to promote GL recruitment. haha~ their lec for their module looks like a poly student sia~ scary~ then went to maki maki's lecture! did up some of MOBIO's project while he is talking abt cancer! hahaha~ so related to our topic sia. haiz~ then off to IS it is! well, we went to d clubhouse to put our bags down n went to paste posters for d recruitment ard LSCT! wahahaa~ well, for IS, it is normal as usual~ nadjy n i better start working on d WORKABLE model. hahaha~ then again, i started playing neopets. why? cos dear is playing n seeing them play i also play lor. just for fun though~ i still got tricksteronline! lvl 48 nia. very sian. TM lvl 50 51% very hard to train lor~ zzzzzz~

as for today~ normal morning lessons except for d fact that i got back INAC CT just to see i failed by 1/2 mark. damn sad la!! cbcbcbcbcbcbccbcbcbcbcb~!!!!!!!! haiz~ can only blame myself. then had 1 hr lunch break. went for MBC prac n we ended early! damn d calculations were killers! rwar~ headed home to chat with dear~ finished of MOBIO project n sent to donnie. nth much for now.

tml have to research on INAC le. dont know where to start also. plus i think INAC i nvr put effort sia. zzzz~ needa start doing something already!!! i failed my CT for INAC so at least this project must do well!! KNN~ haiz..

well, thats all for now ba~ tml is such a boring day~ tatas~

no Innocence, just Me
10:34 PM


Sunday, June 24, 2007

opps!!! been some time since i last posted.

anyway this is a short post cos late liao, tml start sch liao -.- , n i play too much liao. heh~

been playing TricksterOnline. =x hahaha~ kinda addicted but now since i got my skills, n it kinda keeps missing like shit? although if they dont miss, d damage add up quite high, n looks very zhai, i still got d mood to play la. have to lvl still. hahaha~ earn money is impt!! lol~

next up is sch starts tml, CTs are gonna be returned back n results are gonna be like shit. haiz...

nadjy just asked me a very weird qn. "tml got sch?"

visited dear's blog, and dear ar, dont DRINK so much! keep warm is okay. =) then again, dont be like jen so sad then drink so much! her bf will be worried sia if he knows abt it. haiz~

finish my stats tutorial 7 in a last min work. haven done my projects yet. haiz~ tml gonna start doing it if not, tues got telematch for year 1s n i helping out, later no time.. -.-

tml sch opens liao, i got cereals for breakfast. damn i gotta buy bus concession!! forgot to take frm my dad, neh mind tml then ask i pay first. haiz~ hmmm.. sch trips again, tml bag heavy again. havent pack yet. haiz.. still using my lappy.

i guess i better sleep. dear is waiting for me in her dreams! XD tatas =p

no Innocence, just Me
11:36 PM


Thursday, June 21, 2007

To my beloved charmaine dear,

Loving someone doesnt mean u have to see he/she every single day.
Just have them in ur heart, wld be able to allow u to withstand d loneliness even if they are not ard.
Seperation b/w 2 couples is a test to see how strong ur love is for each other.
This duration wld strengthen d bonds b/w couples.
If we cld withstand time n seperation n still continuing to love each other, I'm sure our love towards each other are strong n true.

Dear, I hope u understand what these few sentences mean. I understand what they mean n I'm gonna withstand d time that we are seperated frm each other. I'm gonna hold on to my love for u as strong as it is. I'm gonna be here, waiting for ur return. Even though its only a month plus since u left, my world has changed greatly.

Without ur voice, I feel so ever lonely.
Without ur smile, I feel that my day is not so bright.
Without ur eyes, I feel like I'm lost.
Without ur lips, I feel like I've lost d feeling of kissing.
Without ur hands, my hands cld no longer hold others.
Without ur body, I cld no longer hug anyone.
Without ur legs, there's no longer kicking frm u.
Without u, my life is so in chaos.

However, knowing that ur in my heart, loving u deeply, missing u madly, thinking of u till i cldnt think properly, dreaming of u till its like a drama show, n looking at ur photo as if I'm gonna die. I'm gonna hold to my love for u, I'm gonna be alive no matter what to welcome u back, I'm gonna try my best to visit u during my sem holidays, and I'm gonna love u like I nvr love u before.

Leaving half a year, 6 months, 24 weeks, 168 days, 4032 hrs, 241920 mins, 14515200 secs n minus-ing, ur in my heart, n I know that I'm in ur heart too. So be strong! Work hard! Jia you! Gambatte! I always love u! Aishiteru! Dear daisuke desu!

Loving u n missing u n thinking of u always,
alvin dear dear~

too bad, this blog doesnt show titles, my title for this post is "thoughts of words, frm d heart.......n tv XD"

no Innocence, just Me
12:59 AM


Tuesday, June 19, 2007

woots! back to update!! using my desktop now. been some time since used my desktop for online purposes hehe!

ytd received a letter frm dear!! so happy la!! d letter was so touching also!! dear i love u lots lots deep deep forever!! oh yea, dear has just moved into her new homestay, much more nearer to sch. so next time she wldnt have to wake up so early just to go sch. hehe~ just now went out with my bunch of sec sch frens to have fun! woots~ been so long since we meet up. heh~ had pool, lan n then pool again! wahaha~ although in front of them my pool skills is like zzzz, but then againg i got won a few rounds. heh~

tml gotta head down to sch earlier for project work. today spent d whole morning researching but only read up on 3 treatments for cancer. havent done anything for INAC. -.- haiz... nth much to update anyways. haiz.. well, i forgot to inform dear that i went out n she didnt had anyone to talk to!!! T_T sorry dear!!! tml i'll talk to u longer kies? heh~ oh well.. thats abt it i guess. heh~ tatas~

no Innocence, just Me
10:19 PM


Monday, June 18, 2007

hehehe~ today nth special~ watch finish Lamune, an anime la. very very heart warming man!! made me tear la~~ seriously, watching so many romance anime sometimes make me think back abt d times i spent with dear. it just warms up my heart thinking abt it.

anyways, this post wld be pretty short la. hehe~ i havent done any research on MOBIO project, but will start tml la. however, that jx tell me got pool tml but dont know what time. meaning i gotta get up early to do my research la. then last night discover INAC guidelines is killer, n d presentation week is d same as I&E!!! as for I&E, we havent done any surveys, havent bought a real mini mouse for d chips, havent thought of materials n design for our product, havent research on wiring n funtioning of mouse etc. LOTS TO BE DONE!!! so tml i tackle MOBIO first!! hopefull, d pool wld be somewhere near late afternoon ba! hehe~

jx came to my house today. wanted to go play pool but since he only wanna waste 1hr plus, we went to e-zone arcade to play some games. hahaha~ had a ride on his bike home n it was pretty exciting, yet afraid cos i feel very insecure on a bike. hahaha~ but its not bad overall, he keep telling me to relax n follow how his body move. maybe just relaxing my body wld move d same direction his body move ba. haha~ d wind was really nice~

thats abt it ba. i better go back watching anime cos tml no time liao~ tatas~

no Innocence, just Me
9:40 PM


Sunday, June 17, 2007

cant believe it. its already 2am and i have yet to sleep. thought wld be able to exhaust myself by watching anime. was watching sumomomo momomo. a very funny anime. one shot watched 16 epi. well, since i cldnt cont it, then i went to search for themes for my hp. been some time since i've done that. but it was over in a pretty short while. manage to find some nice ones but have yet to see how it looks like on my phone.

was browsing through photos of me n dear on my phone just now. its not all though, d rest are in my lappy. i really miss dear so much. cldnt talk to her ytd.... n now listening to some music which actually brings in emotion, yea yet again inside me. i miss dear so much! i love her so deep.... even gui gui(d one on my hp) misses his gf(d one dear has) a lot too! n u may think i'm crazy but i actually talked to gui gui on fri night, and i think later i will talk to it. yea, go ahead and think i'm crazy, i dont mind. i'm in a state where i guess no one, seriously no one can do anything abt it. maybe for dear, depending on me. i'm such a weird person, not freak but just weird.

think i'm having too much emotion in me. i cldnt sleep, feel tired but my eyes just wont rest. my body functions like hyper, my brain still thinking many stuffs, cant be stopped. thinking abt 6 months++ then dear will be back. starting to tear yet again. well, i guess i'm just seriously, one who is emotional vulnerable. u know, there are ppl who are like me, have their gfs overseas studying while they remain in sg n vice versa. i guess i'm not alone in this situation, neither is dear. its just that my heart is feeling so lonely. without dear here, my heart starts to wander, it starts to look for dear, it starts to miss dear, it just starts to hurt so badly.

I love you just as you are. (I just love dear as who u are)
Love which connects 2 persons. (I can feel ur emotions, even ur far away)
You've taught me the true meaning of love. (Yes, u did.)
Some love lasts a lifetime, true love lasts forever. (Ours will last forever)
I love every little thing about you. (Its true)
I always give you all my love. (I'm always giving my love to u, only)
You're the only one for me. (No one can replace u, dear)
I love you no matter what happens. (And that is true)
Love is the emblem of eternity. (I'm sure it is)
I wanna be with you forever. (That is my wish)
The only person in the world who I was born to love forever. (Its u, dear)
A miracle to meet you. (Yes, it is)
Love makes miracles. (Surely it does, for me)
Your smile is the sun. (Always will be to me.)
When I am with you, the world looks wonderful. (With u, my world is filled with colours of love)
Love is the key to open the gate of happiness. (I'm sure ur d key to my happiness)
The kiss is a phenomenon that happens to lovers at the precious moment of coming so much. (And I really miss that so much)
Only because you're here. (My life is perfect)
We'll be happy together. (I'm happy to have u as my dear)
With you forever. (Love dear forever)
When I think of you, clouds in my heart disappears. (Only u can make me feel better)
It's destiny that we met each other. (Fate also plays a part)

although i didnt think of all d sentences abv, d rest in d brackets are my real thoughts frm deep down in my heart. Love is the emblem of eternity, i really love this sentence. maybe part of this post is dedicated to my beloved dear, Chew Sze Min Charmaine. to my dear: "i love u like i always do. i miss ur smile, ur voice, ur laughter; i just miss everything lil thing abt u. my tears are for u, my love is for u, u are everything to me. i just cant stop loving u each day even if ur not here. only u can make me smile, make me laugh; its just u who makes everything that is just me. i promise i'll be right here waiting for ur return, no matter what. i'll always be waiting for u, no matter how long it takes. cos to me, ur my everything, ur my life, ur my other half. i love u, forever."

no Innocence, just Me
2:33 AM


Saturday, June 16, 2007

i wanted to update something today. but it doesnt seem like i'm in d mood. dear fell asleep liao. couldnt get to talk to her tonight. last night, my inner feelings burst through again. n yea, i cried, yet again d night. i may be able to surpress that fear, but it'll just always be there. i thought i could get to chat, at least happily with dear, but it just doesnt seem i'm able to. then now, feeling depress. i know, i know. its only 1 day why feel depress abt it? 1 day makes a very big difference when ur love one aint ard u. seems like dear couldnt get her internet up till she gets to her new homestay. and i cant send her d pics. i'm just being emo now. n yea, for d first time, i said "i'm being emo" for d first time. well, i guess its just this way. looks like another sleepless night for me? heh... thus i was late for today's meeting with nadjy n donnie. sry guys...

no Innocence, just Me
8:41 PM


Friday, June 15, 2007

hey ppl!!! hahaha~ been some time since i blogged~ well, i've been busy for d past 2 days doing my job as an usher during graduation ceremony. graduation ceremony is held in sch for 4 consecutive days, 3 sessions per day~ hahaha~ well, for me, d schs i've seen graduating is ICT, Humanities, LSCT!!!, ME, FMS and MDE. yep~

d whole job is so so fun!! wahahaha~ get to know new frens, especially on my grp B3, not sure if wanna give our grp a name or something hahaha~ anyway, we have 3 bosses actually, Steven, d boss man of our grp, cos he was an usher last year for d ceremony too, got experience one. another one, Constance, d boss woman of our grp, she is d student leader ma! hahaha~ n not to forget Lynh, our big big boss woman! why? cos she came for d 1st 2 days of d ceremony, and came back to help again on d other 2 days! hehe~ oh yea, not to forget to introduce our FREN, Dawn. why we say fren? cos she calls us FRENS. so we called her FREN instead of Dawn. hahaha~ though sometimes we had to call her by name. lalala~

well, d whole graduation thingy is so fun! well, gotta hear a lot of talkings frm Directors of d schs n also frm d Gold Medalist themselves. learnt a lot frm this ceremony too! hehe~ Dawn got a few pics of our grp n herself as well!! she havent sent them yet though. will upload when she sends it to us! well, enough talking n i shall describe d pics~


donnie and nadjy want to take pic with d "toilet bowl" hahaha~


not sure abt this one though...


aha~! our grp B3!! not all were there though. =(


okay, this was after d 2nd session i think. nadjy n putri take off shoes! ewww~


this is nadjy's grp! as i mention, he is d student leader of his grp.


not sure for this pic, but it looks pretty "special"


well, i look like a boss! XD but actually i was relaxing watching a vid they playing up there on d screen.


this was taken by putri! very nice man~ =)


donnie sleeping.... with wide arms open! big boss slack position~ lol~


a funny face putri made. think taken by nadjy.


this pic shld be specail cos nadjy looks like a ghost in this one. too bad for his legs there~


ahhhh~ this is d big boss man of our grp~! lol


this is one shot kill of nadjy's grp sleeping after they feel so ever tired. u can see even flash doesnt wake them up. lol~


putri took this of me. heh~ listening to ipod man~ with that ear piece i look like bodyguard. too bad its white! XD


candid shot of them! n so conicidentally, big boss man n Constance, big boss woman look at d cam. ahahaha~ dont know what donnie's looking at though.


this pic, kinda gay for nadjy's sitting position while picking up d book. XD


think this is taken by big boss man~ big boss woman ever ready for cam sia~ XD


doesnt nadjy's head look like a rambutan? LOL~


whatever.....


this candid shot, 2 using hp, 2 stoning, one act cool. lol~ big boss woman does look cool in this pic though. hahaha~


lol~ this is our shoes of d same grp of ppl(look at previous pic) plus me! Mairah, big boss secretary, was wearing d slippers. big boss woman's shoe tip very dangerous. lol~


look how nadjy's sleeping. lol~


and yea! this was funny man~ an error to d screen. haha~

well, that all of it i haven for now~ hopefully, FREN will send us d other pics soon~ its totally our grp man~ n bunch of us(d guys actually) being crazy. hahaha~ i shall conclude for now~ tatas~

no Innocence, just Me
10:45 PM


Sunday, June 10, 2007

omg~ third post for d day! alright, maybe count it as d second one ba. as u can see d 2.50am post made is not a real post, just ignore it. XD

just came here to update abt dinner earlier on. went to KIM GARY HK RESTAURANT to have dinner. celebrate Fathers' Day cos my mom next sun not free. oh yea, next sun is Fathers' Day, those havent got their present pls do get them ar!! lol~ oh yea, my family, my sis, my mom and i shared a present for my dad. its a very exquisite(is that how u spell it?) pen my sis went to buy. hehe~ my dad loves it though so we r relieved. hehe~ but then, he doesnt like d food frm d restaurant, for my mom n sis they enjoyed it, as for me, too hot n spicy. lol~ ordered a cheese curry baked, supreme curry chioce. well, it shows that i got defeated under chilli padi. wtf~ they had small slices hidden within d curry!! d curry looks red so i cannot seem to see it n ate quite a few of it. no wonder i was burning la!! hahaha~

then went to walk ard vivo~ i wanna get XBOX360!!! but my dad doesnt allows cos it doesnt play VCD n have to get external drive for XBOX then can read. -.- oh wells~ hahaha~ then i bought black long pants cos i complained!! bought frm U2, original price is $49, GSS 30%, plus DBS debit card another 15%. after discount my pants costs only $29 LOL!!! almost a 50% discount! so shiok~~ lalala~ then went home by cab. hahaha~

i shall rank UVERworld's new singles according to MY PREFERENCE.

1. Devotion
2. endscape
3. UNKNOWN ORCHESTRA

i find UNKNOWN ORCHESTRA a pretty nice song, thanks to its music though. similar to CHANCE! but in a relatively diff way. well, UVERworld's sinlges nvr fails to surprise ppl i guess. =) thats all for today ba! shall update soon~ tatas~

no Innocence, just Me
10:06 PM


well, its time for me to update yet again~!

as u all can see that i changed my layout again! this time this layout shld be with my blog for some time ba~ maybe till dear gets back! =) suits me a lot though, d skin i mean. heh. hahahaha~

erm.. well, dont know what to blog abt. ytd went drinking! i drank beer! how fun la~ but i only drank less than a can cos i still dont like beer. but then considering last time i hate d taste of beer, i can drink quite a bit now is not bad le. but then again, i still prefer vodka! beer is for old man to drink as their tastebuds are so screwed! LOL~

although i think old man shld drink wine instead, beer still suits them d best! =x XD and yea, i still prefer vodka more. maybe when i grow old then beer shld be right for me! lala~ oh yea, wine is right for me now too! lol~

nth for me to blog abt! after today, d next 4 days, i cannot go out anyway to have fun at all!! okay, 2 days will be staying at home on stanby while d other 2 days will be helping out on d graduation ceremony. haha~ why on standby? cos later got ppl sick cannot go then need replacement they had to find those doing d other 2 days de to come n help out lor. yep~ so i wont be able to go out. actually can la, i just needa bring my blazer n long sleeve shirt ard if i do, in case they call me or something like that. then i will be prepared ma. hahaha~ i wanna go play pool this holiday, to train my skills n season my own cue stick la.

btw, UVERworld has 3 new singles!! and i got all 3!!! endscape, UNKNOWN ORCHESTRA and d other one is in jap ending with d eng word, devotion, not sure what it means cos its new singles so haven got d eng title yet. hehehe~ nadjy did u see this? 3 singles!! u have 1 of them~ u want d other 2?? hur hur hur~ lalala~~ oh well, listening to UNKNOWN ORCHESTRA, damn diff frm d usual singing n music frm UVERworld. endscape's singing style is already diff aleady, UNKNOWN ORCHESTRA is totally diff. wow~ i wonder whats d last song like. hmmm~ i'm gonna listen to it now though! wahahaha~ wow~ its kinda a slow song frm d last song. i havent listen finish yet. be patient ppl~ LOL~ =x alright just finish listening to d last song. n yep~ another new style of singing frm TAKUYA, d lead singer in d band. indeed wonderful job done by d band yet again! at least they always give us surprises with their new style of singing. love d last song n also endscape! wahahaha~

well, i guess i have blog enough le ba~ very sian now, cannot enjoy for d next 2 days. haiz~~ haha~ but staying at home n watch anime might be a gd thing, but still i wanna go exercise, but i dont bring my phone so yea. oh wells.. i'll see abt it then. tatas~

no Innocence, just Me
2:16 PM


alright!!! new layout!! pls comment man. found this at this kind of hr n made it into blog at this hr too! =)

no Innocence, just Me
2:50 AM


Thursday, June 07, 2007

well, back to blogging! CTs are offically over!!! wahahaha~

alright back to d reality world (well, isnt end of CTs also a reality?) kinda so diff i think. cos i'm not gonna score well for CTs anyway. MOBIO, MBC, INAC are all gone case!! i can only hope for an A frm stats. lol~ first time, hoping A frm maths stuff in poly. wow~~~~

anyway, i've got d job for ushers for d graduation ceremony! nadjy, donnie n i are gonna get to wear NP blazers! woots~ that something to look forward too! gonna collect it tml though. also having a briefing abt d ceremony tml. i wonder need to bring anything or not. they said they will send email leh, but i haven receive it yet lor. haiz~

oh well, cos i was watching anime i left my post unattended till now. its already 12.03am le! yay!!! its our 8th month anniversary!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY 8TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO MY BELOVED DEAR!!!!!!!!

although she is not in singapore, this is d 2nd anni that we couldnt spend together. its really very saddening. however, as long dear rmbs every month we spent during d times we were together, and also d times we were seperated, and thinks of me most of d time, i wld be satisfied. all i wish for her is to get gd results over there n to come back as soon as possible. its been 1 month since she's left. however, it seems so long for, not like 1 month more but to 1 year. each n everyday seems to be so long. how i wish time wld go faster so she wld be back soon. i really miss her badly. ahhhhhh~ well not d time being emo!!! its our anni!!! wheeee~

8 months man. by d time she returns it wld be a year plus already that we've been together. DEAR I MISS U SO MUCH!! JUST WANNA LET U KNOW THAT I LOVE U SO SO SO MUCH N WILL NVR CHANGE. =)

guess thats all for today ba. damn, now i'm having doubts of going for steamboat. lets see how my body goes.. tatas~

no Innocence, just Me
9:23 PM


Tuesday, June 05, 2007

seriously have been so lifeless for CTs this week. studied very lil for stats n i can score well, probably. n d only paper left is INAC. i dont feel that push anymore. d push to study, or shld i say d motivation. somehow, i've lost that motivation.

its like i always have this motivation to study since sec 3. i have thought of what i will do if i lost that motivation. n then today i finally made my promise n went for a jog since i've been coped up at home watching anime n sitting in my room for long period of time. i'm not sure whether i will make it for another jog tml. n during my job, i didnt have a blank. well at first it was blank. until d end of my 1st round ard my house area, i kept thinking abt lots of stuff. anything n everything. its always abt being motivated, by 3rd party or urself. then i have come to realise many things i didnt notice at all.

there was nth i could not get since sec 3, of cos not including love relationships. results, d things i wanted, d things i wanna do, i could get them all. i have nvr thought of not getting them. even if i do, i'll work hard to get them d next time. a lot of things changed really when i stepped into year 2 of my poly life. i felt so lousy being a welfare GL, i felt so lost when dear left to aus for studies, i felt like a failure when i couldnt get into d main comm, i felt so useless at times and etc. i've been losing things right at d start of d year. i lost my confidence as a GL, i lost my precious days with my loved one, i lost my hope of being to do something for my CCA, and i lost my confidence. i feel so lifeless at this moment, not being able to study hard for INAC, keep watching anime. as my gd frens, nadjy n donnie got high position in their CCAs, nadjy presidency of his fencing club, donnie an IVP player in tennis n currently d VP in GLs. i know what stress they r facing, well for nadjy, donnie's part have yet to come. i know its gonna be a tough job for them to take on these positions.

as me, out of d 3 of us, i really feel so useless. its like i'm just a small fry right beside them. last time i didnt feel this kind of inferiority to them. but now i can feel it. its hard to deny but maybe i shld work hard myself, to see what my limit is, to see how capable i am. but i nvr got to know where is my limit, to what extend are my capabilities. i feel like an idiot, a baka alvin. so maybe, i'll strive in my studies. but then, my studies only show my educational abilities, n that is all. i wanna prove to ppl, n also myself that i'm capable of something more. just that i always couldnt find d right time, d opportunities for it. unable to do my part is really really a sad thing. although i see nadjy being so stress and fked up at times abt his fencing stuff, but he still handles it.

i guess i shall not say anything more over here. i'm not blaming anyone here, seriously. its just that, i feel like my life is crumbling to its darkest hrs or something like that. it just didnt feel all so gd to me.

no Innocence, just Me
10:46 PM


Monday, June 04, 2007

hmmm.. well i guess i'm gonna upload d song to my blog afterall. heh~ it may not suit d layout for my blog but, who cares? XD

nth much to blog abt except have been either studying or just watching anime on crunchyroll. well, my mom kept complaining that i shldnt just sit on my chair there in front of comp study n watch anime cos my blood circulation wld be very lousy. so yea, maybe i'll go for a walk later on. hehe!

tml stats common test n there is nth to revise. i already revise finish though, by reading through d lec notes. ahhhh~ seriously feeling damn bored now. doesnt seem to have anything to blog abt. anyway, i've been having weird dreams these days. wonder why. whats more i cld rmb all of them la. -.- but anyway, its still really pretty weird for these kind of dreams, especially it came in a row. heh~

ahhhhhhhh~ nth much to blog abt, CTs r just way too common i dont feel like studying. INAC sucks, too wordy n all abt spectrophotometer only. sian~ oh well.. really nth to say le. tatas~

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6:27 PM


Friday, June 01, 2007

my oh my~ damn its pretty late now. i haven start on my INAC revision, which i'm seriously weak in. why? cos i know nuts abt INAC. so yea~ gotta study real hard for these 2 days. finish 5 lecs in 2 days shld be no problem. but then again, since INAC is somewhat similar to IPC (thats how i feel), i wld do my own notes for it. hahaha~

nth much to say abt today though. went to sch for that 5 hrs lec n went home. nadjy came to my house again to watch Letters From Iwo Jima. damn sad la d show, although a lot of parts r pretty boring. hehe~ my next movie wld be midnight sun! gotta go get it soon but of cos not watching it now. CTs just ard d corner. more over, after stats CT gotta stay back in sch cos got interview for d usher thingy. just receive an email frm my fren abt that thing. seems like they dont have enough ppl dont they? heh~ oh well, not gonna cont abt that.

title guilty sky is a song la. a prett nice n very fast moving jap song. d singer is nice, d music is nice, d song is nice! what more can i say? however, wont upload to my playlist for this blog la. cos its like dont suit? hahaha~ had a short talk with dear over skype earlier on n yea a bit of sad sad thingy happened. sry dear for ending ur bday like this!!! =(

u know.... oh well, i better not blog it out ba. its gonna be so emo. lalala~ thats all for today ba. tml gotta work hard for INAC le. tatas~

no Innocence, just Me
11:08 PM


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