Sunday, May 28, 2006
_ Title-less : Why cant u see whats going on inside me? Why do u always take the appearence of me so seriously, instead of looking deep inside me?
I know completely whats going on inside u and how u feel. U are already feeling so sad and sian, do u think i wanna add it on to u just by showing u how i feel too? U will just turn ard and say, "u are suppose to confort me and not the other way round". I'm putting up a brave front not to let u worry and add on to ur saddness or sian-ness.
Yet u kept saying i dont feel sad or whatever just cos i'm BUSY. I just dont wanna show it cos i dont wanna make u worry abt me. I'm ur bf. The least thing i dont want to happen is to hurt u in anyway. The least thing i dont want to happen is to show u the sad side of me. Becos i'm ur bf, i have to be strong, i have to be there for u. Only seeing u happy makes the sad side of me happy. Yes, i may be busy but u think i can neglect my feelings, I can neglect u, just by being busy? If thats the case, why wld i try means and ways just to meet u? Why wld i talk to u first before i really continue studying or doing my work? Why just why? Why cant u see how i'm feeling inside? Why cant we just get together finely throughout the time when i'm in poly and u are in secondary sch? IF this is going through when i'm in poly, and u are feeling so miserable and sad and sian becos me. I know only 1 option. I quit poly. I will nvr ever come up with a second option. Cos i wont throw u aside, abandon u or what. I wont even think of that. Unless u wanna abandon me. If not, the 2nd option will nvr exsist.
no Innocence, just Me
3:11 PM
