Friday, May 26, 2006
_ The Remedy ; actually, this was suppose to be blog up for our anniversary de. but i'm so afraid i wld forget what i had in my mind now, so i might as well make it an early speech.
This speech is to Jocelyn, my dearest.
Ever since we got together, my life is so much different. The moment u step into my life, it feels that my world has brighten a lot more with u. There are days where we didnt get to meet/spend time with each other, my life feels so much duller than usual. When u are ard me, I always feel so happy, not the normal happy, but a happy that cannot be describe. The first month we had, it was so pure and innocent. We didnt do the stuff where couples normally do, this may be doe to the attribute that we are shy on our relationship. Soon after when I made the effort to get closer, we became more and more like a couple. This process is something I will nvr forget. As we got to our second month, we were so much closer than we are back then. Its also the month where we had our first kiss. I will nvr ever forget that moment, so memorable. As we proceed to our third month, we are so close that even ur friends find that u are so much closer to me than the other partners u had. I'm so glad to hear that cos it shows that u feel i'm impt to u. The love u gave me, I will always love u back twice as much. On to the fourth month, we had our first troubles, this causes our relationship to be strained. However, I will nvr give u up for whatever reasons there are for a breakup. Its just because I love u too much. In our fifth month, it was the turning point of our relationship. We had so many ups and downs during that time. And due to that, something tragic happened. The both of us didnt wish for that but we had no chioce. With a brokenheart, I accepted it. However, the nights I cried, I nvr had hatred towards u, neither do I blame u. And I even started to get myself together just to get u back. And yes, my efforts do pay off. We got back together just before our sixth month anniversary. I feel so happy at that moment when we got back together. Its something that cannot be describe, only the feelings shown is true. On to our sixth month, we had the greatest time ever after the last incident. However, ending of the month, my poly started. In our seventh month, my poly was so busy that I seldom could meet up with u. However, we both would try means and ways to meet each other no matter what. It was also the turning point for us cos due to we couldnt meet each other often. However, when I suggested it, u kept saying u wouldnt. I couldnt bare to either. In the end, the suggestion was sunk down into the deep sea. We carried on with each day, thinking and missing each other badly. I know u do feel very sad abt everything that has happened. I do too. However, this doesnt make me give up on u. I also think that u will nvr give up on me. Because, I know I LOVE YOU SO MUCH TO LET U GO! Neither do I want u to leave me, I always want u to be by my side. I just wanna let u know that how much I love you and I have nvr ever blame u for the any of the incident that has happened. I love you too much to hate u. U are the only one in my heart, locked inside it. This is how deep my love is for u, increasing every single day in my life with u.
From ur dearest, Alvin <3
no Innocence, just Me
10:06 PM
